Sometimes Things Just Suck

That’s right. You can have a dream life, but no one’s life is perfect. Like I said, sometime’s things just suck.

Party Prep

These last few weeks have been tough at our house. We have my husband’s birthday party coming up a week from today plus my youngest’s graduation party a month later. When Covid hit, no one was really coming over so we didn’t keep up with everything outside our house. It didn’t really matter that much since no one was seeing it except us. That list of things to do is huge.

Parenting Struggles

I was so busy trying to take care of all of that and school meetings that were still happening that I did not keep a close enough eye on my youngest. She was spending all of her time in her room, which I know is somewhat normal for a teen, but this was excessive. Everything came to a head last week, and I was so concerned that I took her to the ER. She spent 6 days in a behavioral hospital and was diagnosed with bipolar 2. The entire time she was gone was tough, and now that she is back, it’s still tough. Trying to make sure she is doing the things she is supposed to while not setting her off again is hard. Especially since she is 18 and we only get told what she wants us to know. Sometimes things just suck.

Friendship Worries

Then there is my issue with friendships. If you read my post from a few weeks ago called ”Why is it so Complicated”, you’d know how I struggle with friendships. I see pictures of one of my friends hanging out at my best friend’s house or with her a ton. Then jealousy starts to set in, which is stupid. I get worried that maybe she is just being nice and doesn’t have the heart to tell me that she really isn’t my best friend. Even though I know that is not the case deep down. She’s a very busy person and I do live further away than those who she is hanging out with, so it makes sense. Sometimes things just suck.

Family Loss

Last night I got a call telling me one of my cousins was killed in a car accident. I just saw her at a wedding a week ago today, but I only smiled at her a few times. I was going to talk to her, but with everything going on, I was just exhausted and figured I’d talk to her the next time I saw her. Now that won’t be happening. Sometimes things just suck.

It’s Not ALL ”Suckiness”

I know all of this is a big downer, but even with all of the “suckiness” going on, there have been good things. My husband and I have been able to spend more time together while we have worked outside. My daughter is getting help and will hopefully learn how to take care of herself before she leaves for college in a few short months. I learned that I passed a huge test I took at the beginning of the month. That took a huge weight off my shoulders! My cousin’s passing makes me even more appreciative of the time I have with those I love. It reminds me that you never know how much time you have or when you will see someone again.

Yes, sometimes things just suck. Thankfully it’s not everything and it doesn’t last forever! Try to find the good in the “suckiness”. I’ll keep trying too.